New Year Resolutions never really worked with me so I guess I'll coin the term "wishlist" for this simple blog post on the things I want to succeed in come 2008 AD ..

1) Marksmanship badge [ and it's $200 incentive ]
2) Gold for my IPPT [ Also got $200 .. lols ]
3) Civilian Class 3 [ procrastinating about this since forever, so .. -.- ]
4) A FC or 86? [ quite impossible but no harm wishing for one ya .. LOL! ]
5) Lastly, an other half? [ another Mount Everest but still .. ]


Hmm ..

The year hasn't really been as positive as I would really loved it to be. So many downs and so few ups. I thought I could prove myself able to stand tall among the best of the best but nope, I only succeeded in making myself the laughing stock, not just once, twice, thrice BUT time and again [ and again and again and again and again .. ] Everyone called me a fool for doing things that never warranted the merits that could justify the sacrifices I made. Those who know what and whom I'm talking about at this point would just point a finger and say: "You're just looking for trouble." and be on their way, having knew that their advices to me had fallen on ears deaf to kind intentions. But still, with ever that hint of foolishness, of pride and ego, of unconditional love to whatever and whoever I had towards, I did it. Not to say that I am proud to have done it, of course. But what other path could I have took? I really don't know. I weighed all the possibilities there was. I don't wish to justify my choices under the category of "necessary evil" because it sounds like I'm running away from the truth but in a way, it is. I AM RUNNING AWAY.

Hai .. I just wanna be the best there is but then again, it's a long and lonely way to the top and I have just only started ..