Weather - COOLING..
Mood - Frustrated..
Song - Zhou Jie Lun - Xin Yu
Time - 08.16 A.M.

just woke up not long ago. i donno how to explain this, but i really can't explain and link how fucked up my life is with doing the same quiz one more time. lol. anyway;

 Enough is enough - you feel frustrated and rejected. You are fighting back and the going is tough. It would be just wonderful if you could be left in peace.

All of your dreams and hopes have not materialised and consequently you are unsure of which way to go. This uncertainty has led to considerable stress but you have sufficient 'strength of mind' to overcome this state of affairs although it will take some time.

Nothing seems to be going right for you and you are thwarted every way you turn. You are not at all happy with the situation but it would appear that there is very little that you can do about it at this time. Sit back and let the situation take its course, because at this time you feel that there is nothing you can do to change whatever needs to be changed.

Whatever has caused the situation, you just don't seem to be able to sustain or maintain relationships as you would wish to. What you really seek is to be able to develop a relationship with someone with whom you can truly share: Love, Serenity, Peace and Quiet. But you are a very demanding person and it is your nature that leads to disquiet and discord: you are like the tide, flotsam and jetsam... One minute you experience 'highs' and a few moments later 'lows'. This obviously will introduce discord into any relationship and with this demanding attitude - the ideal state you desire is unable to develop. Despite the urge to gratify your natural desires, you impose a considerable self-restraint on your instincts in the belief that this demonstrates your superiority and raises you above the common herd. You are extremely critical of everything that is presently going on around you and you find it difficult to listen to or to take advice from anyone. You enjoy the original, the ingenious and the subtle.

The need for admiration and to be regarded as 'someone special' is perhaps one of the foremost aims in your life at this time. You would like to perhaps do something outrageous or anything that will give you the chance to be recognised as someone special. This desire has now almost become an obsession and in your own way you are trying to fulfil this 'complex' by ensuring you are the centre of attention, both at work or play, or in the home. Stop trying so hard and you will find that people will like you for who you are - not for who you are pretending to be.

those who are reading, feel free to comment. i could use the criticism. or praise. or whatever.

anyway, a update of the past few days.

Saturday -

well. finally, we cremated my ah ma. Mandai Crematorium/Colubarium [ think thats how it's spelled, lol ] Her ashes are now stored at the nearby Colubarium. Plot No. 0233. there's a story as to why this plot was chosen though. the 02 is for the day that when my grandpa passes on, his ashes will be placed together with ah ma so that they may continue their journey in the heavens together. the 33 is as that in chinese, we use this to denote the abundance of water and the presence of a nearby artifical "mountain" to help ensure that they have an abundance of whatever they may need up there. heh. and well. after the proceedings, it was too late for the UGC qualifiers, so no choice, straight to ps for a little game with leon. gladly got myself thrashed, 5-1. lol. oh well. n00b mah. so cannot blame. anyway, after that, straight to bugis i went. met up with rain and tong, played quite a few games before we left to eat steamboat. lol. $12 per person, i tink. anyway, thanks for the treat also, rain. the food is quite nice. but well. i only grouse the fact that there isn't any aircon there. lol. but well. after that. went down to cathy. caught the covenant. and yes, someone is kpkb - ing that i SLEPT THROUGH HALF THE MOVIE. LOL! seriously, paiseh. was abit tired + aircon and seat also so shiok. so zzz i went. lol. but well, did manage to see the show at one part or another la. okay la. but i still tink that they machiam renacting dragonball lidat. ending part the time. everyone starts playing around with semi - invisible balls. -_________- but other then that, give it a try guys. go watch ^^

Sunday -

out with parents bah. suntec city and all. met up with kazer for a few games of wangan. was intending to do whatever i could with regards to the LovE. R32. [ fucked it all up a few days later at jp. car got shaded at stage 65. and since i have no money and time to go chiong 5k mileage for 815hp, i tink i'll go back to my FD. ] well, it's ironic. since i fucked up my love life, the car gets fucked up as well. heh. and speaking of wangan, i will be stopping it for now. why? well. like what ah gong told me, you need to concentrate on one thing. can't really do two things at a time. and
i really want to get better in ID. so no choice. sacrifice wangan bah. oh well.

Wednesday -

okay la. i skipped monday and tuesday. but well. nothing much to blog about also. just to school from back. so ya. blog what? lol. anyway. yesterday's was ah gong's bird day. 18 years liao. lol. nothing much, just a quiet celebration at his house. compared to last year, this one sounds like a dead circus. apart from kazer and ah gong trying to gay me, nothing much to report, but i did blow like 30-40 bucks on drinks/cab fare/pizza hut for the birthday. lol. and at a time when every cent counts, i go pull this kind of stunt -.- hehe.. but it's worth it la. for a good friend like him, yeap. worth it. after that, took a bus down to jp. ID quite abit, and plenty of thanks to york for lending me quite a bit of money to play ba. will return asap. haha..~~

well. that's about it i guess.. till next time. out.