Weather: abit hot.. -.-
Mood: Bored
Song: Vivian - Mei Ren Yu
Time: 4.06 p.m.


this post is directed at my immense boredom. just took this little quiz. it's called the five variable love test. and well. seriously speaking, i'm very surprised. it's too true for words -.-

http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyouridealrelationshipquiz/

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Status - Single

Propensity for Monogamy:

Your propensity for monogamy is medium.
In general, you prefer to have only one love interest.
But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long!
There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering.

Experience Level:

Your experience level is high.
You've loved, lost, and loved again.
You have had a wide range of love experiences.
And when the real thing comes along, you know it!

Dominance:

Your dominance is low.
This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced.
You know a relationship is not about getting your way.
And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom.

Cynicism:

Your cynicism is low.
You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance.
No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter.
You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate.
And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon.

Independence:

Your independence is medium.
In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time."
You usually find it easy to be part of a couple.
But occasionally you start to feel a little smothered

* Listening to Pamsy - So Fragile *

for those who don't know, this is one of the songs in initial D Stage 4. quite nice and rather, like what the title says; Fragile. yes, everything is so fragile..

well. spent the better part of yesterday out at suntec. needlessly, to say; i was at the "Xing Xing Gong Chang". lol. well. was meeting zhi wei and friends there. got from him the 30 bucks for the FREE T - Shirt. well. so yes, job more or less done. after all i pass them the money, i bid my goodbyes to them. for real. i have already submitted my resignation to quit FREE; i expect phil to raise hell about it but well, who cares. one could say that i have abit of bad blood here and there with a member of the team. and well, after this, TRF. i believe i have a "debt of honour" to repay to them and so i shall.

anyway, after a bit of chit chat with them, i left for jp. went there to chiong ID. well. one can nuke me for STILL PLAYING ID when you have like $55.89 in your bank account [ anyone want to donate money to me? =X ] but.. sometimes, you throw common sense out of the window and just do whatever you like to relieve yourself of the agonies and frustrations at hand. anyway, i have a little game with this asshole called leon today; the reason why i call him an asshole is that i believe he proposed this game for all the wrong reasons. i'm already feeling down and he has to add on to my agonies. -.- hai~ fuck. i'll just thrash him and be done with it.

and lastly. well. Lance is back to being a lonely driver. why? simply put, no matter how much he wishes or want it to happen, it won't. so ya. i believe i should stop living my dreams and live my life instead. and well, there's also another saying that really applies here. a rough translation would be something like " you happy, can already. " in chinese, it's " Ni Kai Xin, Jiu Hao. "

hai~~.. and with that, off i go.. time and tide waits for no man..

* listening to: Tian Kong - Yuan Wei Jue Xing *

well. it's been 2 weeks or so since i last blogged. so here i go.

ah gong has a laptop. yes, he's finally accomplished that dream of his. to say the truth, i find his choice abit hasty. well. technically speaking, i don see any value in buying a laptop that may possibly have problems in even playing dota -.- but well, that's just me. And then again, it does suit him well; he only needs it for;

1) his Msn
2) Friendster, watching/creating of V.3 [ and perhaps IDAS 4 vids? ]
3) downloading and watching PORN ! =X [ opps, say too much liao. eh. you all never see that hor? hor? xD ]

and yes. watched two movies; Me, You and Dupree and as well as Death Note. with who, where and when. i tink those who know me well will more or less know the story la. lol. yet again, great shows they are. espically the ending of Me, You and Dupree. Dupree himself attempts a jump in celebration but instead screws it all up and falls down instead. LOL. anyway, Death Note's Part 2 hits the cinema screens in November. so ya. stay tuned, lol.

hmm. anyway. School has started. got back my results; and yes, finally.. an A! YEAH! ^^ and a slight improvement. GPA is a 3 [ which is up from 2.6. ] hmm.. time to start pushing.. lol. also, the timetable is abit O.o. well, it's alot more relaxing then the last two terms, that all i can say. lol.

okay. so ya. yesterday. let's see. Really is chiong ID with both Norad and Gunzui. well. UGC is around the corner so ya, have to "train" la. but well, looking at this year's potential opponents doesn't really do wonders for my mood. there's Ah Guo, Leong Chun, Yi Sheng, SQ etc. nb. one must wonder how the fuck i'm supposed to win them. -.- hai~ no matter what. i still have to try. the ball is round so who knows what might really happen. maybe i get lucky and overtake? lol. but then again, maybe i'm dreaming too much also. lol. oh well. time will tell, no? anyway. encountered this guy who was playing with a GC8. well, nothing wrong there, right? that is, until he tells ah gong he wants to join the UGC. and we're all like, WTF!? okay la, not looking down on people here. but.. let's see. eh. cornering speed machiam like BG4 lidat. even though it was wet, i don't really recall having to go down to 3rd gear for akina's 5 consecutive hairpins -.- . and ya. his dressing style is kinda weird [ either that, or i'm very swakoo ] but he's wearing something like hard gay shorts, has long hair and a MOUSTACHE -________- weird. but well. one man's meat is another man's poison. lol. also, i and ah gong had quite of a "shock" as well. you see, when you put two guys together, you can't really expect them to look at each other right? so ya,
we're both bio - ing at girls when suddenly, this girl suddenly skips past us and goes " ahhh~~" like machiam kena fucked lidat -__________- so ya, being the ever cheeky bastard, andy was like " wah lau. don bo tai bo ji scream until lidat la. come i help you " and as a joke, pretends to go after the girl. but well. before we could go any further, ah ma messages him telling that she's going to sleep and specifically NOT TO LOOK AT ANY MORE GIRLS. LOL! smart girl, really.
so, with that, we continue our little "training" session till we all run of money and walk over to the so called "Xin Xin Gong Chang" where Norad and Gunzui decide to play Soul caliber. watched them played before leaving about 12. and now, coming to this, i feel like killing myself.
literally blewed $50 bucks on this little trip. crap. and to say the truth, my money isn't like alot le. so ya. have to budget abit liao. and worst. earlier today, i got a piece of bad news. my ah ma is hospitalised. i'm not sure for what though. and now, everyone's quarrelling as to who is to pay for the medical fees and all. yes, there are some fucking cheapskates in the family. well. don't really know what they're tinking. but come on. SHE'S YOUR MOTHER AND YOU ALL DON'T CARE? WTF!? hai~~ really donno what to say. heh. anyway, thanks to medisave and CPF, it has really dropped the bill but if it's as what my uncle worked out, we're still about 40k short, give or take 5k. oh well.only my uncle, my parents and me are paying for it all. uncle samuel is contributing 15k, i'm clearing out my whole bank account and my parents pays the rest. well. i can only say. my ah ma is perhaps the only female [ besides my mother ] to know who i really am to the point that i don't have to say or do anything, she knows straight away what i want. what i am today, no matter how good or bad, it's very much due to her. she's taught me so many things; from cooking [ okay, i admit. i still suck ], to her so called "principles of life". hai~ just hope she pull through it okay... i really cant bear to lose someone so close to me..

well. God has really ruined me completely. what can i say? i really feel like crying my heart out. i'm already close to losing the girl that i love, and this has to happen. WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME!? FUCK!

hai~~. no point brooding. i have my own life to lead. well. night all..

* listening to Jay Chou - Hui Dao Guo Qiu *

at a corner of this same room i am in now, that cute little baby that goes by the name Zhi Long isn't really sleeping like he's supposed to be. in fact, he's just turning left, right, up, down to ease what seems to be his immense boredom at being stuck in a bloody 4 by 4 crib. lol.

hmm.. nothing much has really happened. let's see. friday, a day at jp. to pay my respects to ah gong. as per normal, Wangan and ID. saturday. out with rain and tong to watch stay alive. okay la, not really that scary, though tong had her eyes shut/cover for like 1/2 the movie.. LOL. anyway, the sound system at cathy cineplex... wow. POWER. hear also damned shiok ah. haha. anyway, before i continue. that cute little guy is finally asleep. lol.. so ya. picking up from where i left. sunday. guai kia abit, accompanied my parents to suntec. they wanted to shop, so ya, i havent really developed the paitence and ability to shop together my parents. lol. so off to the arcade i went. anyway, saw kazer there. joked around some while doing the wangan highway with him and one other guy we joked as being my brother. why? simple. i was driving my FC, he was driving a yellow FD. shades of the takahashis there and of course, kazer being kazer. he pointed it out to much laughter between the both of us. haha.. but then again, had to leave early as my parents finished fast, so ya.. abit of a pang seh there.. lol.

so well. back to the now, the present. to say the truth, after all that happy stuff earlier, my mood just dropped. well. what can i say? you try your best to make her smile, laugh. anything to make that dark cloud above her disappear. do everything and anything for her, from searching the songs she wants to forking out money to buy for her that cute little bear she sees at the window, even ignoring the fact that the money you have isn't your own and hence not supposed to be spent in the first place. then patiently, time and again, withstand her tempers and tantrums with nothing but a smile and a word or two to calm down, to slowly explain her troubles and so on. in the end, what do i get? i been left unappreciated, treated as shit and what have you. dammit. i feel like screaming at the moment. hai~ as a spot of black humor, i'm contemplating suicide at the moment. heh. the 10 secs it takes from me to jump down from the 11th floor looks so tempting as compared to the chore of worrying about you EVERY FUCKING SECOND of my life, where, in the end, you just wouldn't even care...

hai~~ really donno. what i should do..

* listening to - Zhou Jie Lun - Kai bu liao kou *

- basically, for those who don't know what this song is about. it's about a guy not being about to say out his love for a girl. okay, in short, it's what i'm facing at the moment, so.. ya. someone pls enlighten me on what to do.. hai~~

okay. havent really done anything much this few days. caught 2 movies; Haunted apartment and Rob - B - Hood. okay la. Haunted apartment, it's like what kazer said. it's not really scary once you get the idea of how a typical japanese horror movie works. ya. when it gets to the really scary part, they'll normally divert it to the next scene [ typically in a morning setting ] and let your own imagination scare yourself. lol. but it's quite touching, when the female lead finally realises the truth behind the tale. it's just that the girl realises that she and the ghost share a similar fate, where they both before were sexually abused by their father. all in all, a nice show [ if one can overlook the fact that it didn't really scare ppl half to death, lol ] Also, Rob - B - Hood. great comedy there, enjoyed the show alot also. normally, i don't like to quote the newspapers on their movie commentary but i have to say, i have to agree with the newspapers on this one. one of jackie's best shows yet. and ya, i'll like to tink. with many more to come. LOL.

also, one might be surprised. picked up 2 things; pool, audition. plenty of arigatos to rain and tong there. [ one might be inclined to add that i'm a person that can be easily pyschoed to do anything and everything. lol ] but anyway, what can i say? i suck at both. pool. well. rain keeps commenting that i very the no strength. oh well. scared i mis que, then jump ball la. lol. also, audition. i really suck. espically when it comes to all those high BPM songs [ i think i do better just listening to the song then actually playing, lol. ]

oh ya. i forgot to add, in my earlier blog posts. my newest job is now babysitting [ not one, but two babies. ] one can put it as a sort of joint partnership with my mother. [ by the way, one's called zhi long, the other, jia xin. ] pay's not bad either, enough to for me to sustain myself. LOL. it's quite fun actually [ until the moment when the babies start to switch on surround sound to demand your immediate attention, then it's a different story altogether, lol. ] but well. there's a thousand and one things i love about it: the cute looks [ espically their eyes, they're just SO CUTE ! ] of the babies, the adorable positions they adopt when they sleep [ case in point: imagine a baby sleeping with her butt in mid air. LOL ] , their "baby Language" etc etc. there's really too many to name. hahaha.. it brings a smile to my face when i turn back the clock, go back to their cute and funny moments. ya.

but well, as a spoiler, results were released today. in any case, i shall not be bothered. i know that my results will probably be too fucked up for words. so ya. no point spoiling my holiday mood. lol. i'll look into it when school reopens. lol.

hmm. oh well. as i'm typing this now, out of the middle of nowwhere, my mind started wondering to Kaiqi's little problem. or rather, his dedicated love to that one girl. well. i have to respect him on that point. even though she already expressed her point of rejection, he's still in love with her. and to top it off, he's willing to wait till she says yes. ditto, but if it was me, i would have probably been more or less sadded to give it up and wish her all the best. but well. that's not the point here. rather, my good old former teammate in FREE is involved. to be more precise, Judas. was surprised to hear this but anyway. apparently, he likes her as well. spended like what, 100+ bucks on gifts for her? so ya. to kaiqi, it's like a form of backstabbing, i guess. more of us at jp more or less know of his story with her, so ya, for judas to come in at this point of time, it seems like very extra le. but oh well, knowing judas, i think he hates kaiqi so that will probably explain why he's not bothered with the backstabbing part. but then again, knowing her, he'll also probably be rejected alongside kaiqi as well [ after all, she does have a boyfriend ]. heh. irony there. fuck care friend, in the end, kena fuck care by the girl you like also. lol.

oh well... enough with things also.. i need my sleep. so ya. good night.