always too little, always too late. heh. sorry rain. maybe the bastard part was a bad idea after all. Best of luck to you and cong as well. what can i say? wished i had a second chance. i'm hoping you give me one but if you don't tink i don deserve it, oh well. it's my fault for being slow anyway.
but, in any case.
keep going, lance.
well. dear diary. hehe.
i sound a bit girly at the moment. and not much of a surprise that is, huh? at the rate i'm going, it'll be of no wonder that i'll end up with PMS instead..
Stress. it creeps up on you slowly, without you noticing it. slowly, the pressure bulids up. and up. and up. and still more up. until you can't take it anymore. and BOOM. you explode. heh. yes. it's made worst by the fact that i'm like expecting something bad to happen anytime. i can't really explain it. been get some eye - twitching on my left eye [ anyone know if this is good or bad?] this few days. some say it's a good sign, other say it bad. oh well. in any case. i need to destress. maybe a trip to jp to tune both the wmmt MR2 and s30z tomorrow might help. but. In the meantime, got this little inspirational "tale" from a friend of mine. here goes.
What is Love?
Love is not to forget but to forgive,
not to see but to understand,
not to hear but to listen,
not to let go but to HOLD ON !!!!
Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like,
because the one you like will leave you for the one they love.
Find a guy, who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he
cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
Wait for the one who turns to his friends and
says, "...that's her."
what can i say? i'll make this my creed of love. and make sure it stays that way.
but. for now. i just will have to tell myself. in spite of whatever bad or sour or just plain fucked up things come up my way..
Keep Going, Lance.
i sound a bit girly at the moment. and not much of a surprise that is, huh? at the rate i'm going, it'll be of no wonder that i'll end up with PMS instead..
Stress. it creeps up on you slowly, without you noticing it. slowly, the pressure bulids up. and up. and up. and still more up. until you can't take it anymore. and BOOM. you explode. heh. yes. it's made worst by the fact that i'm like expecting something bad to happen anytime. i can't really explain it. been get some eye - twitching on my left eye [ anyone know if this is good or bad?] this few days. some say it's a good sign, other say it bad. oh well. in any case. i need to destress. maybe a trip to jp to tune both the wmmt MR2 and s30z tomorrow might help. but. In the meantime, got this little inspirational "tale" from a friend of mine. here goes.
What is Love?
Love is not to forget but to forgive,
not to see but to understand,
not to hear but to listen,
not to let go but to HOLD ON !!!!
Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like,
because the one you like will leave you for the one they love.
Find a guy, who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he
cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
Wait for the one who turns to his friends and
says, "...that's her."
what can i say? i'll make this my creed of love. and make sure it stays that way.
but. for now. i just will have to tell myself. in spite of whatever bad or sour or just plain fucked up things come up my way..
Keep Going, Lance.
- Fakey is currently high on James blunt: You're beautiful.
well. someone is right. i'm getting lazy. so ya. update. don't ask me why about the fakey part though. someone gave me that nick. so ya. use it lor. lol.
the past few days have been entertaining. TRF vs Emperor. hmm. was rather shortcharged, since i didn't have much of a time to go train for the match either. AE86, both wet and dry. heng heng i did win some on behalf of my friends in TRF. but well. winning isn't everything. discovered that i lost touch with it. so ya. go pia back the feel liao.
was supposed to bring rain and tong out to watch over the hedge, but then again, the timing was really over the rainbow. lol. too late. match ended at 8-9, so in the end, had to settle for a rather late dinner at PS. foodcourt, to be more precise. not bad ah, the food. lol.
well. school is getting to be quite an ass. alot of things to do, but so little time. everything is done in a state of a "rush" that will probably leave much to be desired in terms of quality of work done. hehe. screwed.
and now, there's a little bump on my head. incurred it when i accidentally smashed my head on the low ceiling of that little shelter outside of school. not much of a pain there, so i guess i'll just let it heal naturally.
and well, tat's about it i guess..
well. someone is right. i'm getting lazy. so ya. update. don't ask me why about the fakey part though. someone gave me that nick. so ya. use it lor. lol.
the past few days have been entertaining. TRF vs Emperor. hmm. was rather shortcharged, since i didn't have much of a time to go train for the match either. AE86, both wet and dry. heng heng i did win some on behalf of my friends in TRF. but well. winning isn't everything. discovered that i lost touch with it. so ya. go pia back the feel liao.
was supposed to bring rain and tong out to watch over the hedge, but then again, the timing was really over the rainbow. lol. too late. match ended at 8-9, so in the end, had to settle for a rather late dinner at PS. foodcourt, to be more precise. not bad ah, the food. lol.
well. school is getting to be quite an ass. alot of things to do, but so little time. everything is done in a state of a "rush" that will probably leave much to be desired in terms of quality of work done. hehe. screwed.
and now, there's a little bump on my head. incurred it when i accidentally smashed my head on the low ceiling of that little shelter outside of school. not much of a pain there, so i guess i'll just let it heal naturally.
and well, tat's about it i guess..
the 101 things about life: it never goes the way you wanted it. amen.
well. what to say? i really wished things arent the way it is now. but well. too late for regrets. will just have to take it as lesson learnt, and move on. no?
in any case, i got this very interesting article from hotstuffs Singapore about professional driving, labeled " GET PSYCHED! ". and since cars and driving are just about the few things i care about for the moment, here goes:
Broadly speaking, any kind of mental training which aims to increase a driver's effectiveness at the wheel of a racing car must start with the assumption that victory is a consequence of the work done. with this attitude, victory ceases to be the main objective and is replaced by the quest for perfection in the various factors which contribute to victory. these include fitness training, setting up the car, managing a set of tyres properly, knowledge of the race tracks and the list goes on. [really gotta learn this one, lol ]
in the end of it, the driver takes on the track during the time qualifying, he would not have uppermost in his mind the idea of clocking the shortest time. he would instead try to produce a perfect lap, overcoming the diffculties of the track, optimizing his own performance and concentrating on all those details which make a decisive difference. Ultimately, victory is the consequence of the work done in different areas. [ here's something i could use in my id and wmmt..lol.. ]
a driver should not give in to pressure of qualifying, winning, even sponsors who expect a result. for a driver, getting into a car must be like going to the office for a top manager; it's his job [ shades of takumi here.. ]
in order to be accustomed to remaining unemotional in the cockpit [ here's a pointer, i really need to learn this as well. i get too nervous easily. zzz ] , there are drivers who put on their overalls and helmet when doing fitness training [ too bad, i don have the same gear as they do or i could say that i'm tempted to try... lol. ] however, one thing to note about the helmets and overalls; are that they have to be those normally used while racing. training with overalls and helmets is also a way of focusing on the excerises and their relevance to the race.
while running, associate the loss of grip on the soles of your shoes with that of the car's tyres. alternatively, your tiredness is to the tiredness you feel when you finish the grand prix. while you're doing weights, associate your breathing racing on a F1 circuit. inhale when accelerating, exhale when braking. breathe in while relaxing the muscles and breathe out while contracting them.
breathing is the secret of success in motor racing. breathing steadily and not in gulps is an indication of calm and self - control. when a driver is controlling his breathing, he controls himself and is keeping his emotions in check and maintaining clarity. not to mention that breathing steadily also keeps the pulse rate down. drivers have been measured at 190 beats per minutes just before the light turns green at the start.
this is not the result of physical exertion, but of emotion. the mastery of breathing techniques can reduce the pulse rate at the start to between 75 and 80 beats per minute. reactions are controlled by the mind, and the specialists who work with drivers are trying to achieve a perfect balance.
on the other hand, the secret appears to lie in making the drivers take stock of themselves by looking back into their past and examining the problems which hinder their performance. ( and even among F1 supermen there are few who cannot point to some problems from their adolescence. ) there are pyschoanalytical sessions, which initially aim to find the balance in the man and later tackle the problems related to being an F1 driver.
it is common for novices to fall into the trap of burdening themselves with the pressures of the team and to make mistakes because they are looking for success at any costs. Eventually, they end up overdoing it. besides being able to weigh up the words of his manager and interpret them correctly, a driver must also be extremely cautious of safeguarding his peace of mind.
End. wow. really have to get this book. Princples of race driving by Ayrton Senna. word.
well. what to say? i really wished things arent the way it is now. but well. too late for regrets. will just have to take it as lesson learnt, and move on. no?
in any case, i got this very interesting article from hotstuffs Singapore about professional driving, labeled " GET PSYCHED! ". and since cars and driving are just about the few things i care about for the moment, here goes:
Broadly speaking, any kind of mental training which aims to increase a driver's effectiveness at the wheel of a racing car must start with the assumption that victory is a consequence of the work done. with this attitude, victory ceases to be the main objective and is replaced by the quest for perfection in the various factors which contribute to victory. these include fitness training, setting up the car, managing a set of tyres properly, knowledge of the race tracks and the list goes on. [really gotta learn this one, lol ]
in the end of it, the driver takes on the track during the time qualifying, he would not have uppermost in his mind the idea of clocking the shortest time. he would instead try to produce a perfect lap, overcoming the diffculties of the track, optimizing his own performance and concentrating on all those details which make a decisive difference. Ultimately, victory is the consequence of the work done in different areas. [ here's something i could use in my id and wmmt..lol.. ]
a driver should not give in to pressure of qualifying, winning, even sponsors who expect a result. for a driver, getting into a car must be like going to the office for a top manager; it's his job [ shades of takumi here.. ]
in order to be accustomed to remaining unemotional in the cockpit [ here's a pointer, i really need to learn this as well. i get too nervous easily. zzz ] , there are drivers who put on their overalls and helmet when doing fitness training [ too bad, i don have the same gear as they do or i could say that i'm tempted to try... lol. ] however, one thing to note about the helmets and overalls; are that they have to be those normally used while racing. training with overalls and helmets is also a way of focusing on the excerises and their relevance to the race.
while running, associate the loss of grip on the soles of your shoes with that of the car's tyres. alternatively, your tiredness is to the tiredness you feel when you finish the grand prix. while you're doing weights, associate your breathing racing on a F1 circuit. inhale when accelerating, exhale when braking. breathe in while relaxing the muscles and breathe out while contracting them.
breathing is the secret of success in motor racing. breathing steadily and not in gulps is an indication of calm and self - control. when a driver is controlling his breathing, he controls himself and is keeping his emotions in check and maintaining clarity. not to mention that breathing steadily also keeps the pulse rate down. drivers have been measured at 190 beats per minutes just before the light turns green at the start.
this is not the result of physical exertion, but of emotion. the mastery of breathing techniques can reduce the pulse rate at the start to between 75 and 80 beats per minute. reactions are controlled by the mind, and the specialists who work with drivers are trying to achieve a perfect balance.
on the other hand, the secret appears to lie in making the drivers take stock of themselves by looking back into their past and examining the problems which hinder their performance. ( and even among F1 supermen there are few who cannot point to some problems from their adolescence. ) there are pyschoanalytical sessions, which initially aim to find the balance in the man and later tackle the problems related to being an F1 driver.
it is common for novices to fall into the trap of burdening themselves with the pressures of the team and to make mistakes because they are looking for success at any costs. Eventually, they end up overdoing it. besides being able to weigh up the words of his manager and interpret them correctly, a driver must also be extremely cautious of safeguarding his peace of mind.
End. wow. really have to get this book. Princples of race driving by Ayrton Senna. word.
well. update.
okay, so we didn't get to catch The Wild after all. it just so happened that today was the last screening for it, and of course, i failed to realise that. zzz. so in the end, had to switch for Poisedon. mark my words. money well spent. Wolfgang Petersen is such a remarkable guy. His direction of the film is simply OMG. l33tness indeed.
and well, FREE is going to go nuts soon. heh. supposed to be at one of the meetings today, but me no turn up. i predict a lot of sacrasm coming my way. soon. even more so when they spotted me with 2 girls? siao liao. better get bulletproof vest. yea. like i mentioned earlier, alot of shooting
coming my way. zzzz.
and speaking of girls, i done my part. guess today have put a smile on the both of them. so ya. like they always say, Mission Accomplished. but then again, there's a certain element of failure here today. heh. but then again, regrets also no use. too late. should have acted a long long long time ago. not now. oh well. all the best to her huh? no use tinking so much. leads to negativity. and perhaps a few more gray hairs and wrinkles? but then again, who cares?
for now, even though i have a shitload of assignements and projects to be cleared, i guess i'll just go and sleep. too distracted by her to do anything. zzz.
okay, so we didn't get to catch The Wild after all. it just so happened that today was the last screening for it, and of course, i failed to realise that. zzz. so in the end, had to switch for Poisedon. mark my words. money well spent. Wolfgang Petersen is such a remarkable guy. His direction of the film is simply OMG. l33tness indeed.
and well, FREE is going to go nuts soon. heh. supposed to be at one of the meetings today, but me no turn up. i predict a lot of sacrasm coming my way. soon. even more so when they spotted me with 2 girls? siao liao. better get bulletproof vest. yea. like i mentioned earlier, alot of shooting
coming my way. zzzz.
and speaking of girls, i done my part. guess today have put a smile on the both of them. so ya. like they always say, Mission Accomplished. but then again, there's a certain element of failure here today. heh. but then again, regrets also no use. too late. should have acted a long long long time ago. not now. oh well. all the best to her huh? no use tinking so much. leads to negativity. and perhaps a few more gray hairs and wrinkles? but then again, who cares?
for now, even though i have a shitload of assignements and projects to be cleared, i guess i'll just go and sleep. too distracted by her to do anything. zzz.
Update.
okay. i'm getting worried. my left eye been's twitching at random. from yesterday night till now. asked around, alot of them say it's the prelude to something negative going to happen soon. and yes, i'm abit worried that it might come true. lol. but then again, no point worrying. only adds on to the gray hairs and wrinkles and what have you, lol.
so far, so good. school pressure is still tolerable, and hopefully, it'll stay that way. but i just don't get it. why some people just don't really know the meaning of FUCK OFF. heh. i don't really want to name names but then, you should know who you are. seriously, i don't really have anything against you but then again, i'm still reminded of what you did last semester. it's a sore point in my friendship with you. yeah. though the term's already over, i can't bring myself to forgive you. no way, no how. tsk tsk.. and i thought myself as the ever - forgiving and understanding guy.
okay, so judas has a little game with andrew next. at tpy. and andrew has a little game with one of the tpy regulars there as well. i don't really know who, but from the tone and expression he has exhibited at the forum, i can guess that he won't be easy meat for andrew. which is just as well, since he has told me it's for the fun of it. not really much of a point whether he wins or lose. wow. some solid thinking from him there huh? lol.
and well, tomorrow will be a day spent at jp [ yet again huh? -.-" ], trying to bring some cheer into the lives of two girls. perhaps The Wild can bring a smile to their face, perhaps not. well, i don't really know what will happen, so again, better not tink too much. Negativity is a trait of mine that is best left alone.
oh well...ta ta ppl... time waits for no man.
okay. i'm getting worried. my left eye been's twitching at random. from yesterday night till now. asked around, alot of them say it's the prelude to something negative going to happen soon. and yes, i'm abit worried that it might come true. lol. but then again, no point worrying. only adds on to the gray hairs and wrinkles and what have you, lol.
so far, so good. school pressure is still tolerable, and hopefully, it'll stay that way. but i just don't get it. why some people just don't really know the meaning of FUCK OFF. heh. i don't really want to name names but then, you should know who you are. seriously, i don't really have anything against you but then again, i'm still reminded of what you did last semester. it's a sore point in my friendship with you. yeah. though the term's already over, i can't bring myself to forgive you. no way, no how. tsk tsk.. and i thought myself as the ever - forgiving and understanding guy.
okay, so judas has a little game with andrew next. at tpy. and andrew has a little game with one of the tpy regulars there as well. i don't really know who, but from the tone and expression he has exhibited at the forum, i can guess that he won't be easy meat for andrew. which is just as well, since he has told me it's for the fun of it. not really much of a point whether he wins or lose. wow. some solid thinking from him there huh? lol.
and well, tomorrow will be a day spent at jp [ yet again huh? -.-" ], trying to bring some cheer into the lives of two girls. perhaps The Wild can bring a smile to their face, perhaps not. well, i don't really know what will happen, so again, better not tink too much. Negativity is a trait of mine that is best left alone.
oh well...ta ta ppl... time waits for no man.
well. i haven't really update this blog for about a week, so here i go.
quite a few things have happened in the past few days. first things first. school has reopened. and not a moment too soon. i don't really fancy sitting at home like some stoned statue waiting for things to happen. the pressure is starting to bulid up also; there's three projects and god knows how many assignments and homework flying my way. so better get prepared. heh.
ID is getting abit more exciting. matches will be flying my way soon also. time to get prepared as well. there's Emperor, for starters. Moron and SAD close behind. and tong lam and xiao ming. and roop. and god knows who else. lol. like phil has said, time to bring back my composure into the game. so yea. will do boss. besides, i don't really fancy losing to emperor as well. SAD maybe, but not emperor. as opponents, they're good, but like ppl have said, not good enough. and i know the way to counter them. their TA might be good, but battle wise, no. the other time round with leon and his team RX-7, i lost my calm and cool. this time round, i'm not going to repeat the same mistake twice.
and well. rain and elmo. it's really hard for me, as a friend. she really wants him back. but the him part is still as per standard, fuck care la. and ya. come on. you and i know you still care about her la. so what's stopping you from going back? even tat confounds me. at this rate he's going, i can probably rate this as one of the greatest mysteries of life..lol. but well, like i told rain, patience and faith. and so comes the next greatest fear of mine. i hope, through my choice of words that i'm not giving rain false hopes. or influencing elmo to break up with her. i really hope not. maybe i'm still abit traditional, but seriously, i still tink there's a chance. a very slim chance. and hopefully, it does work out. because knowing myself, i trained myself to succeed, not fail.
but well. enough with the shit already. it's going to be a busy day tomorrow, and with that, time for some zzz..
quite a few things have happened in the past few days. first things first. school has reopened. and not a moment too soon. i don't really fancy sitting at home like some stoned statue waiting for things to happen. the pressure is starting to bulid up also; there's three projects and god knows how many assignments and homework flying my way. so better get prepared. heh.
ID is getting abit more exciting. matches will be flying my way soon also. time to get prepared as well. there's Emperor, for starters. Moron and SAD close behind. and tong lam and xiao ming. and roop. and god knows who else. lol. like phil has said, time to bring back my composure into the game. so yea. will do boss. besides, i don't really fancy losing to emperor as well. SAD maybe, but not emperor. as opponents, they're good, but like ppl have said, not good enough. and i know the way to counter them. their TA might be good, but battle wise, no. the other time round with leon and his team RX-7, i lost my calm and cool. this time round, i'm not going to repeat the same mistake twice.
and well. rain and elmo. it's really hard for me, as a friend. she really wants him back. but the him part is still as per standard, fuck care la. and ya. come on. you and i know you still care about her la. so what's stopping you from going back? even tat confounds me. at this rate he's going, i can probably rate this as one of the greatest mysteries of life..lol. but well, like i told rain, patience and faith. and so comes the next greatest fear of mine. i hope, through my choice of words that i'm not giving rain false hopes. or influencing elmo to break up with her. i really hope not. maybe i'm still abit traditional, but seriously, i still tink there's a chance. a very slim chance. and hopefully, it does work out. because knowing myself, i trained myself to succeed, not fail.
but well. enough with the shit already. it's going to be a busy day tomorrow, and with that, time for some zzz..
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